THE BATTLE FROM WITHIN



It was not right.
I thought it was at first but then things happened that no one expected.
 No it was not a demon, no it was not depression and neither was it desperation.
 I did not even understand myself then.
All I wanted to do is to get it done and live with a clean conscience.
I wanted to feel like human again, I wanted to see things positively and most of all I just wanted to be me.
The me that I was before, the me that never cared about anyone or anything.
The me that took the bull by its horns and did what she did,
My conscience was killing me, eating me up, little by little.
Yes I did and I was happy and content about it but now this conscience……..
I had no regrets I still have no regrets …
This feeling is what is getting me under pressure….
I walked with my head high, my face hiding the guilt..
I tried for a while but I could not any more.
“I do not have a problem” I told myself but at the back of my head I did..
The reality was too harsh….
The fear took over the ego…
I did not want to be seen…….
Then I realized that indeed it was it that gave me a voice…
It was it that made my Ego what it was….
It was it that made me feel like a lady…..
Now…..
Am just Seated here wondering why.........

Why................

Why  I CUT MY HAIR…..


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